After feeling pretty craptacular about class last night, I started to look online to find out why I’m sucking wind at Paramedic school. One of my searches brought me to a website with a test to find out what kind of learner I am.

And according to that website, and a few others, you know, just to be sure, it turns out that I am an auditory learner.

I guess I understand that, and according to their profile, I fit it to the letter, but what I don’t understand is why then, with all of the talking being done in my class, am I still not getting it?

Sure, there are certain personalities there that I find rather… uninteresting, and blame it on my ADHD, but if I’m not interested, I’m not engaged. But there is a part of me that beginning to worry that I’m not engaged because deep down inside I’m not interested in becoming a Paramedic.

But that’s not true. I really want to be a Paramedic.

I just think that I’m in a class with people who have been in this field for longer than I have, and certain egos involved don’t want to take the time to explain things to a newbie like me.

How do I know this? Because they backhandedly call the whole process of having to explain things to someone by the term “hand holding”.

With a reference like that, no wonder I feel like I’m in elementary school all over again.

But I’m not a kid. I’m a grown man. And I have resources at my disposal. And money.

That’s why I decided to spend today searching, gathering and purchasing audio resources to aid in my auditory learning style. And for those that I couldn’t find, I made myself. For example, I read out loud the entire vocabulary for the current chapter we are on, recorded it, and saved it as an .mp3 file.

Afterward, I listened to it a couple of times, and then I sat down to read the chapter. And to my delight, already, there are terms that I recognize jumping off of the page at me.

Have I discovered to secret to my success in this class? I guess we’ll have to see.

But for now, maybe I can learn some things from my own voice, and then when I’m staring at a quiz, as I read the answer to myself in my head maybe I’ll recognize the correct answer by recognizing my own voice saying it.

If any of that sounds confusing to you, that’s just the thing, to me it makes perfect sense.

And I’m the one who has to pass this class, and I will do it by any unconventional means necessary.