Official Home Of BIG Ben Kennedy

Medical professionals will probably tell you that this is a normal part of grieving, but maybe I just want to go into work and have people laugh at me instead of the obligotory, “I’m so sorry.” and the “are you ok?”. Maybe it’s a defense mechanism. Maybe I just wanted to confront my own father in the face in the mirror this morning. Maybe I just wanted to try something new. Maybe I want to look tougher than I am, or than I feel right now. Every other day, I have such a welcoming aura or friendly vibe, that strangers talk to me, or ask me directions. Maybe people will see me looking like a convict or old west gunslinger, and think twice, or not bother. Maybe I just want a tad bit of space. Whatever reason I did it for, I did this…

Please feel free to laugh, or get mad, just anything other than cry for me or feel bad for me. Because the real reason I did this was because I can.

Sorry I couldn’t smile though. I guess I don’t really feel like smiling, or wanted to see how tough I look. Maybe later today, or sometime soon, I’ll take a picture with Benjamin and/or Kerri. I can’t help but smile in those photos.

As for my foray into new facial follicles, I’m not hurting anyone, or myself, and I just want to have some fun right now. Scratch that. I want to have fun for the rest of my life. My wife deserves to be married to a guy like that, and my son and any other kids we may have or adopt in the future deserve a father like that.

It time to be me. I’m not trying to gain fans, or sell a product in the form of a comedian, I’m just me.

I have a day job. I’ve had day jobs the whole time I was a comedian. But you tell the press you are a full-time comedian because it sounds good and it sounds like you are “making it”.

I didn’t “make it”.

I used to work in direct care with the developmentally disabled, now I work for a retail electronics store delivering appliances and big screen TV’s into people’s homes everyday. One of the reasons why I tell you this, is because I’m wondering if customers are going to let me into their homes anymore looking like this. I’m probably going to wear bandanas and sunglasses and push my customer’s comfort levels. Why? Because I know I’m harmless, and I just want to have fun.

The reason why I won’t tell you the name of the store though is because I may say things on here from time to time that are not reflective of my company.

And also I wanted to let you a little deeper into my world, because if my day to day, or my “experiments” yield funny results, I’m going to come right back here and tell you about it. I’m going to make the most out of every minute I get.

So I guess I should welcome you to the world of BIG Ben Kennedy! Not the stand-up comedian, but just a guy named Ben Kennedy with a BIG imagination, BIG heart, who loves BIG, and who laughs BIG.

And I really hope I can change your view of life sometime.